Wishin' I was in Guatemala

Have you ever really wanted to go somewhere so badly it hurt?  That's me this week!  Aside from missing my wonderful husband, I have been longing to be in Guatemala.  I seriously tried to figure out a way to go, but being almost 36 weeks pregnant, I knew the doctors would tell me no.  My husband even said no!  I kept saying, "people have babies in Guatemala all the time," but I knew deep in my heart it really wasn't a good idea to go.  That doesn't make it any easier.  It's hard to not be able to see the people I have come to love.  I've been 3 times already, so I have formed relationships with several of the people there, and I really want to be able to see them again.  Aaron is planning to go back in October, but I'm not sure that I can make that trip, either, seeing as I will have a 2 month old.

I am praying that not being able to go will only make my love for the people of Guatemala and my desire to serve the Lord there stronger.  I have really struggled this week with wanting to be involved in ministering there and not being able to.  I know that the Lord has a plan for me in not being able to be there this week, and I pray that He will reveal to me what it is and use it to make me a better servant for Him.